I havent added a post in 4 months. My life has changed so much since then. I gave up writing. What has changed:

1. 3 months ago I moved into my own place, just me and my kitten. I couldnt live with the people I was living with anymore. Everyone was constantly partying while I was trying to get some sleep to get up for work. I moved to Toronto to get a career and make a life and enjoy life.

2. When I moved I wasnt sure what would happen with Troy and I, I mean we were together for 4 years. I waited so long for him to grow up and make a life for us but it just never happened. So 2 months ago I ended it. It was so hard for me to do. Its very complicated but I know that I made the right decision. For a long time I was really down and I still am sometimes but Im dealing with it. At least now I get some sleep and have more energy and I can concentrate on positive things instead of always thinking about the bad things in my life.

3. Since moving, I have been saving money, starting drawing again. I received another 2 dollar raise at work, which helps alot when your living on your own.

4. I have started dating someone new, its very new so I dont want to say to much about it. We will see how that goes but its good right now.

I know now that I will be ok and this is something I was worried about before.