Its Friday

Im so glad its Friday. This has been one crazy week at work, were releasing our new software. So I cant wait to have a day off, a day to relax, rest my brain.

Troys Dad is coming to visit us, it maybe the last time we'll see him for awhile because hes leaving in a few weeks to move to Newfoundland to join the rest of the family that are already down there. Last year His sister and brother in law and niece all moved to Corner Brook. Then in May his other sister and her 4 girls moved there, then about 2 months ago his mom moved. Its sad that we dont have them all around us anymore. It was great seeing all the girls all the time but IM glad that they will get to grow up in Newfoundland. Their actually outside Corner Brook in IrishTown. Maybe someday Troy and I will move there. Or move to PEI where my parents are.

So anyways I want me Troy and his Dad to all go for a walk in High Park, see how it looks this time of year. Then we'll probably go out to dinner somewhere nice.

Also wanted to mention that I watch the movie Taxi Driver, with Robert De Niro, last night. The one with Jodie Foster and she only 15 years old and Cybil Sheppard, she so beautiful in this movie. Id seen it all time ago. Its such an awesome movie. It actually won for movie of the year in 1978. I watch alot of movies lately. IT must be the weather, its too cold to do anything else.

Wednesday

Things have calmed down between me and Troy. Why do I have so much spit in me. I hate it. But I know it isnt something that I can change. I just have to learn to control it some.

The last couple of days have been pretty relaxing, watch TNA wresting paid per view. IT was good.

I watched a movie called Alice. I had never heard of it before and I love ALice in Wonderland. My roommate bought the movie, he said hed been looking for it for awhile. I really enjoyed it, although it was a little strange, not being in cartoon. I also saw online that Sarah Michelle Gellar did a movie called ALice. ITs based on the game ALice, which Troy has, its an evil side of Alice, . I would like to see this too. But I couldnt find anything online about the movie I watched.

Besides that, I finished my book ive been reading finally so I have to choose a new one.

My Terrible Weekend

I really wasnt going to write anything about my weekend but then I changed my mind. Maybe writing will help me straighten out my thoughts. Troy and I had a really bad fight. Some friends of ours , a couple that we hang out, Kevin and Christa came in town because it was Christa's birthday. SO we decided to go to this really nice bar, called Gpsy C0-Op. Its funny because the band at the bar was playing all Bill Withers songs. Anyways Troy and I got in an argument. Kevin started in on me, Erica why you giving Troy a hard time. I said Kevin I dont think its any of your business so stay out of it. Kevin would not let up. Erica you seem like such a taker to me. I couldnt believe he said that after all I have done for this guy. He practically lived at my house when I lived in Brampton. I really am not a taken. I never ask anyone for anything. I always pull my own wieght and others if need be. Anyways already Christa's birthday was ruined. I was so upset and i just wanted to go home and go to bed. We get home. ANd it doesnt stop there, Kevin is like why you got to get so upset when you dont get your own way. Im like, Kevin why you got to worry so much about me and Troy. Troy has nothing to say in all this, he just sits there.

SO I go to bed. I go to bed and still I can hear Kevin talking about me. I get out of bed I go out to the living room and I say Kevin, thats it. Im done, please go home now Kevin. This is the end of me and you. I was so upset. I go back to bed and fall alseep right away.

The next day, I wake up , I find Troy asleep on the couch, probably afraid to sleep with me becase I was so mad. I fought with him the whole next day abot everything. About me coming back to Ontario to live with a bunch of guys when he was suppose to save moeny and get us an apartment. About him not having a stable enough life, moving from job to job. About me having to support him when he doesnt have a job. It was one of the worst fights every. I told him that I didnt think I could stay in a relationship with him anymore. I told him it was too stressful for me. I told him I was getting my own apartment and we would have to see what happens from there. I cant stay in the apartment im in now anyways, its too cold. Its the same temperature in the living room has it is outside. I have to spent most of the time in my bedroom to stay warm.

When I first came back I was going to get my own place but i thought we'll stay here for awhile and save more money. I should of done it then.

Im 28 years old, can I start over again? Do i want to start over? I really do love Troy but hes going to have to get his own life straight before we can have one together. ITs really so depressing and stressful. Im so confused.

Illustration Friday-Remote

This my entry for Illustration Friday, topic Remote, once again done in paint. I didnt realize it would be so small. The quotation says, Wilma the Worm thaught to herself, how long do you think it will going to take you to get there? IF anyone knows how to make the picture bigger, please comment.

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Friday

Its Friday morning finally. The weekend is here. The sky is blue outside. Im happy. I dotn really have any plans for the weekend. I have alot of laundry to catch up on, I have to go to the dry cleaners and I have to clean my apartment, exciting stuff. Troy has to work on Saturday so I wont be hanging out with him. There is this really neat store abotuu 1/2 hour walk from my house that I want to check out. Its a second hand store that has everything. They have dressers with different things in all the compartments, all different pearl necklaces, which I love, old love letters, old pictures, postcards, old clothes. Everything is really old, like from the 20s. I forget the name of it. The first time I was there Troy was with him and he couldnt handle it, so we were only there for a few minutes. Well id better get back to work, I'll write more on the weekend.

I had to post this, I love my little pony.

You Are Subversion!
You are systematic and secretive. Sometimes even very calculating. Most everyone trusts you but they have no idea what really goes on in your head. You are capable of being nice or mean, whatever a situation calls for. You look out for #1.

What Naughty My Little Pony Are You?

Late for Work

So i get up really early this morning, 7:00. I usually dotn get out of bed until at least 7:30. I have a shower, take too long in the shower, get ready. I leave the house, I wait for the street car for 5 minutes. Its now 7:40, so I will actually be at work on time. Streetcar comes and I dotn have any tickets or change. I have to go back to the apartment, climb the 2 long flights of stairs get my tickets. I come back down and then next streetcar is turning the corner, I missed it. So now I know im gonna be late, yet again. SO i go get a coffee, and wait for the next car, which takes 10 minutes. I get to the subway and try to call work to say im gonna be late, no answer. So i finally get here, and noone is here yet, crazy i cant belive it. Well not in my office anyways. We have two offices, the receptionist, shes in the second office, lets me in. Its now 8:50, 20 minutes late. I signed my time sheet and put 8:35, noone will know the better. ANyways its 9:15 adn people are only just showing up. I cant believe. What kind of place do I work, everyone is always late. Well not always but alot. I love it, at my last job I used to get in trouble all the time for being late. Ok got to get to work now, Its 9:35 and I havent even started yet.

Ickie77 

at work

Im finding it hard to stay awake today. Sitting in my office staring at my computer screens is getting to me. I just went the bathroom. I look like crap. My hair really needs to be washed. I need to get more sleep. Having my own office is new to me. After lunch I just shut my door and put on my head phones and surfed for 2 hours. I really should finish my project but I cannot concentrate on it, id rather listen to music, currently listening to Braid-Please Drive Faster.

Back to Work

Monday morning, back to work. My weekend went by so fast even though it wasnt that eventful.

Friday night I stayed at home, me and my boyfriend drank some beer and then a couple of friends came by and we ended up listening to a full CD of White Zombie, 18 songs, quite the experience. After that we listened to Bill Withers, quite the switch up hey. Both musical genius's with totally different music genres, one hard metal, the other kinda folk jazz. I love Bill Withers, I think everyone should have a copy of his greatest hits. My roomate, which is the one who put on the White Zombie CD, fell totally in love with Bill Withers. My favorite song by him is "Aint on Sunshine". But for anyone who is wondering who he is, he sings "lean on me", everyone knows that song.

Saturday in the day I watched the new JEt Li movie "Unleached". Its a very good movie. Then I went out and did Laundry and went shopping. Me and Troy had lunch at our favorite family restaurant. While in the restaurant this guy come in selling meat. So Troy convinces me to buy some, so I buy a big piece of corned beef and a big kabasa loaf. That night my roomate cooked supper and I tried squash for the first time, baked in the oven, I was told it tasted like turnip, but it is way richer. I couldnt eat much of it. Saturday night, me and Troy play Mario Bros3 on nentindo for 2 hours and drank tea, no beer tonight. I had a little hang over. We were going to go to the beach for a walk but it was too cold outside, I turned the heat on for the first time on Saturday, so we just walked up our street for a nice long walk.

Sunday I watch Fifth Element, another awesome movie, which Ive watched many times. And for supper I decide to make corned beef hash, I put a big pice of the corned beef in the blinder and then fried it. and then mashed in the with potatoes. It was great. My roomates had never had corned beef hash, they loved it.

I had a pretty relaxing weekend, now I have to get to work.

Nameless Graves

This is my post for Illustration Friday, the topic is Lost. This is my first entry.

Natural Disasters

Ive been feeling so depressed lately. I really dont know how to deal with all that is happening in the world. Every since I was watching TV last saturday night. Im coming home from a concert so happy and I turn on the tv and I hear 10,000 people dead in Pakistan. How fast it happened. I read in the paper this morning theres more then 35,000 dead now and tens of thousands injured. There are two million people homeless. Most of these people cannot be reached or will not be reached in time to save them because they live in remote villages. They fear of disease out breaks. Soon it will be winter there and they have fierce winters. What will happen to all these people. And why is it that people are nto affected by this. Ive even spoken to people that are happy about it. I dont understand, people have lost their lives, their families, thier children, how can anyone be happy about this.

Is this mother natures way of dealing with over population.

I was reading about some of the natural disasters that have occurred. This information came from www.cbc.ca.

July 28, 1976 - The world's most devastating quake of the 20th century (magnitude 7.8) hit the sleeping city of Tangshan, in northeast China. The official death toll was 242,000. But some unofficial estimates put the actual number of dead as high as 655,000.

May 22, 1927 - A magnitude 7.9 quake near Xining, China, killed 200,000

Dec. 16, 1920 - China was also the site for the world's third-deadliest quake of the 20th century. An estimated 200,000 died when a magnitude 8.6 temblor hit Gansu, triggering massive landslides.

Nov. 13, 1970 - A cyclone in the Ganges Delta killed at least 300,000 in Bangladesh

1921 - A Soviet famine in 1921 began with a drought that caused massive crop failures. The initial death toll was greatly magnified when Lenin refused to acknowledge the famine and sent no aid. The Soviets later estimated that 5.1 million died.

What about this one:
The bubonic plague ("The Black Death") that spread through Europe beginning in 1348 wiped out an estimated one-third of humanity, about 25 million people.

The list goes on and on ofcourse.

AT least I live in a country where I dont have to worry about these natural disaster. I can be thankful for that. I think all Canadians should think about this when we are outside this winter complaining about the cold. We are all truely blessed.

Crush

I just have a question for today. what does everyone think of crushes. I mean is it ok to have a crush on someone when its not the person your a relationship with? A real crush, not a crush with a tv star or anything. Just wondering.

Picture I drew in paint

Thought I would add a picutre I drew in paint today. I really wan to get a graphics tablet, but i havent been able to afford one yet, maybe soon. Its kinda hard to draw with a mouse. I really like to draw, so i also need a scanner so i can put some of my drawings on here also.

I just want to put pictures up of my recent trip to Centre Island, for people that havent been there, it really is beautiful. People in Toronto are lucky to have the islands and the Lake. It has some beautiful beaches, city views and the amusment park and restaurants, and flower gardens. Troy and I decided to bring a tent with us and camp all night, which is not allowed ofcourse, but we're rebels. I love it there so much. The picture I took of the city would make a perfect postcard. Yeah so it was great fun. I tried to add more pictures but its wont let me. I guess 4 is my limit? ALso I havent figured out how to place pics yet, so this looks kind of sloppy.

Your Fashion Style is Urban

You've got a style all your own... and it worksNot too trendy, not too freaky - you've got streetwear down to a scienceYou always look cute and put together, but keep it comfortable tooYou're the type of girl that creates trends and inspires others to be funky

What's" Your Fashion Style?

My parents

I wanted to add a picture of my mom and dad to my site. I dont have a picture of them together on my computer so i have to put two. I miss them very much. I didnt get to visit them for about 2 years, so recently I went to stay with them for a while, 6 months actually. All of my family was there. Itwas nice to have everyone under the same roof, both my brothers and sister in law and nephew, all staying in the same house. That may never happen again so I will cherish that time always.

It was so great having my moms cooking again, having her there to help me with some hard decisions that I had to make. My Daddy there, to remind me what hard work is.

I love my family so much.

Ryan

This is my third attempt at trying to figure this thing out. lol, i thinkim suppose to add post to my one blog but I have created 5 blogs, i dont know.
Heres a pic of my nephew, the cutest little man in the world.

October 11

This is my first entry. Im mostly going to use this to post photos for my family and friends, but we shall see how to goes. I moved to Toronto 4 months ago. ITs been a little tough moving away from all my friends and family to a really big city. But I have my boyfriend Troy and I love it here.

We live pretty close to the beaches so we spent a bit of time there when the weather was warmer. I have been trying to do as much as I can before its gets really cold. I went to some outdoor feativals, an East Coast festival, I got to see Gordie Sampson.

I love all the different restaurants, trying new food.

I love looking for antiques, my street as a ton of antique stores, I gotten a few sweet things so far, an 8 foot long couch. I love it.

I love center island, Toronto is so lucky to have Lake Ontario. me and my boyfriend actually camped out with a tent on center island. It was so amesome to get up in the morning and go tothe beach for a swim with no one there. I also went on a boat cruise at night on Lake Ontario.

Music is a very important part of my life, I will write alot about that later. Thats the main reason I moved to Toronto. Theres so many concerts I want to see and so much different music I want to hear. Saturday night I went to see Atmosphere, they were so awesome.

Ok thats it for now. Happy Thankgiving Everyone. I love you Ryan.