Taken from jenburgess

"I find that often people don't want to hear the truth from those most likely to tell it."

It applies to so much right now, people truly believe what they want to believe. So be it. Good riddance.

Monday Morning

Its Monday morning again. I really do not want to be at work, but I have to be. This weekend just clarified things more for me. Troy and I are not going to make it. I really thought that he was the one for me, that it was meant to be. His mom is sisters with my best friends mom. But it cant be. Why would I feel so hurt all the time.

He tells me he loves me but I really dont feel it. His actions tell a different story. Last night at 3 in the morning, he comes into the bedroom, he played video games until then, even though he had to work in the morning, he does this all the time. I told him to sleep on the couch, if he was going to be up all night because I knew that he would do this. I cannot be woken up at 3. I went to bed at 11:30 and he said no im coming in now. But no he comes in at 3 and wakes me up. I couldnt get back to sleep so I got up to have a smoke. I come back inthe room and hes already alseep. I just lied there for over an hour, realizing that I cannot do this anymore. I knew in the morning he wouldnt get up for work,and I was right, once again. He had to call in and say he was going to be late. Who knows if he even went.

He finally finds a good job, and he is starting to blow it already. I have been through this too many times to do it again. Will he ever grow up?

On another note my best friend told me shes going to meet me in PEI and drive to Newfoundland with me. I cannot wait to catch up with her. Her and her boyfriend, whom she was with for like 3 years, just broke up so. They just spent a year apart because he had to go to the States for school. So lately we have been talking alot more. ITs hard for me to tell her anything though because Troy is her first cousin. I hate even writing things here, but it sort of helps me.

Count down to Newfoundland

Cute Picture

I had to post this picture. I love cats, which is another reason why I must move, because I want one so bad and my roommate is alergic. Poor pussy cat, so cold.

Its Friday Again

I havent been posting anything at all. My life is so messed up, so I never have anything postive to say. I cant believe another week is gone. Time goes so fast living in the city. I still have so much Christmas shopping to do. Im gonna do some after work before I go home, because I know if I go home first I wont want to go back out into the cold. We actually had a snow storm last night. The power went out in the apartment twice.

I dont have any plans really for the weekend, probably drink to my sorrow. Troy and I dont hardly even speak to each other anymore. Hey its better the arguing all the time. I told him that after Christmas Im going to get my own apartment. Where I am now is just not the right situation for me, and I think we need the time apart. Im tired of cleaning, ive given up on it, and then coming home and the place is a big mess again. I mean its hard enough living with one guy, let alone 3. I dont want to cook anymore. Ive been living on soup and sandwichs. Although last night, two of my roomate did make a nice meal for everyone, that surprised me.

I guess we'll see what happens after I move out but I really feel its something I have to do for myself.

The Book Quiz

You're Inherit the Wind!

by Jerome Lawrence and Robert E. Lee

To you, the learning process is inherently about controversy. If
people aren't having their minds stretched, how could they possibly be learning? This
makes you a good but unpopular teacher, and the people around you are ready to make it
a federal case. All you're asking them to do is evolve a little. But they would like
you to be more creative. You would make an excellent lawyer, even though people think
you love monkeys.


Take the Book Quiz
at the Blue Pyramid.

Rides from the Santa Claus Parade

I didnt get Santa, my batteries ran out.

Elf Wizard

This was suppose to be my picture of Illustration Friday but Im a little too late, oh well. Its my try at drawing my character form the game Dungens and Dragons Heroes for xbox. Troy, Robin(my roomate) and I have been playing it all week, we which have characters, mine is an elf wizard, she fights with a staff and she has wicked magic powers. We finished the game yesterday and now were going to play it again in nightmare mode.

Santa Claus Parade

I just wanted to let people know that on Sunday the Santa Claus Parade will be in Toronto. I cannot wait. NO matter where I am I never miss The Santa Claus Parade and Ive watch the one in Toronto on TV for years so I cant wait to see it in person.

ALso Im seeing snow right now for the first time this year, that pretty exciting. Everyone in the building is so down because of it. Not many people from the city know how to enjoy winter. But me I love it. I know I wont get to do most of the things that I would normally do in Newfoundland, like skiing and skidooing. But still I love taking walks when its snowing lightly, to me its so calming. Im gonna start ice skating when in a another month, apparently they make a nice rink at City Hall.

Also yesterday I bought my plane ticket, so its official my going home for Christmas. Im so happy. I have 11 days. Troy and I are flying into PEI and then driving with my parents, I thought it would be a better experience for Troy, the boat ride, docking in Port aux Baques. I am so excited to see Ryan, I miss him so much. Also my best friend, Charmene is coming home for Christmas, I havent seen her in 3 years, although we still chat msn or call each other. Im so excited. So this weekend will be alot of Christmas shopping.

I love Christmas, its the best time of the year.

Also Im very late with my Illustration Friday, but I will put it up, I actually drawed a picture this time so Im gonna take a picture of it with my camera and post it and see how it comes out.

Name: Eddie Guerrero
Height: 5 foot 8
Weight: 220 pounds
From: El Paso, Texas
Finishing Move: Frog Splash; Lasso from El Paso
Career Highlights: WWE World Heavyweight Title (defeated Brock Lesnar at No Way Out on February 15, 2004); WWE Tag Team Titles (3 times); WWE Intercontinental title (2 times); WWE United States Title (defeated Chris Benoit in tournament final at Vengeance 2003); WWE European Title (2 times); WCW United States Title, WCW Cruiserweight Title, ECW Television Title (2 times)

Eddie Guerrero was found dead Sunday morning, November 13, in his hotel room in Minneapolis, Minnesota. He was 38.
No cause of death has been reported, Guerrero is survived by his wife Vickie and three daughters: Shaul, 14, Sherilyn, 9, and Kaylie Marie, 3.

I couldnt believe this when I turned on the TV to watch Wrestling last night. I am so sadden by this loss. He was such a great wrestler, one of the best. Its so sad to see ths happen to a person that has been through so much, recovering from a drug addiction 4 years ago and becoming a born again Christian.

Hewas lying, cheating , stealing, Eddie It was so funny and exciting to watch him.

But it was nice to see all the great things everyone had to say about him. All of his friends and family. He truely was a wonderful person, so caring, loving and very funny. He would pray and read parts form the bible to the other wrestlers when they were having problems. he had really turned his life around.

They said that he was to become to the Champion again. Last night on the show, Cena lay down Eddie's "Im Your Pappi" shirt, which he has been wearing for a few months now, in the middle of the ring and took off his Champion belt and laid it Eddie's shirt.

Eddie will be very missed by a lot of people.

Windy Weekend

I had such a nice day yesterday. Troy and I decided to finally go to High Park. Ive been wanting to go there since I moved to Toronto. Its a very nice park. It was so windy outside and it was blowing the leaves from the trees everywhere, it was like it was snowing leaves. It was so beautiful. We walked from one end to the other and ended up by LAke Ontario. It was so windy the Lake was full of huge waves, some of the biggest ive ever seen, and im from Newfoundland so I know waves. After leaving the Lake we walked around looking at shops on Queen Street and then we found this nice little restaurant to have supper in. I love eating in these types of place, it isnt fancy or expensive and there always older people there chatting about the old times. We decide were going to do this every sunday, find a nice little place to dine in. I took pictures of some of the beautiful senery which i will post later.

Also on the weekend I watch Gangs of New York, one of my favorite movies, and The Matrix, part1, another of my favorites.

Troy and I are trying to at least get along. We are both planning on taking a trip to Newfoundland for Christmas, he hasnt been there since he was 6 years old, so it should be fun. I cant wait.

Illustration Friday - Night

School At Night

Illustration Friday - Broken

I couldnt upload my picture as a bitmap this week, dont know why, so I had to save it has a jpeg file and thats why it isnt has clear.

Tuesday

My life is not going to well right now. Troy and I are trying to figure out what is going on between us, should we stay together, should we break up. I cant seem to get past fighting.

So anyways I just wanted to suggest a movie to anyone who might read this blog, Its called Saved. I loved this movie so much. Its about a bunhc of senior in high school, that are born again Christians. Its actually a comedy, but it doesnt make fun of religion at all. It has Jena Malone, she so cute, and Mandy Moore, and a bunch of other got acters. Theres a wesite for the movie called www.savedmovie.com, it has trailer for the movie. Check it out.